December 15, 2019
This week has been pretty tough getting myself to put words down on paper, but I know I’m not the only one who goes through that. Putting them here on the internet is much easier for some reason. I suppose it’s writing in a different format.
I struggle with feeling like I’m making no progress, and as per my previous post about impostor syndrome, it really affects me in that way. Am I a good writer? Do I even tell a good story?
These thoughts often cross my mind. I’m not really a pessimist, but I have to admit that sometimes it does get to me. Why can’t I just be like everyone else and write at full speed even though I have plenty of time? I know this isn’t true; people have their own lives and things they have to do that get in the way. I just wish this didn’t affect me so strongly.
It’s like a never-ending cycle. I feel like I can’t tell a story properly, so I don’t even bother trying. Sure, I’ll put a few words down in Scrivener, but they really don’t make me feel proud of them. I want to be proud of my work and I know if you aren’t proud it shows up in the writing and the reader can tell.
So, it’s not doing me any service if I’m just going to delete the words. I’ve tried meditating, plotting, and working on other projects, but it just doesn’t seem to do the trick this time. Oh, no! It’s starting to happen to me again while writing this entry!
Any advice on how to overcome this? I know I could try to take a break until next year and come back to it, but I really want to keep my streak up! Maybe it’s time for me to work on another book, I’m not sure.
I know this is only temporary and I’ll overcome it. It’s just being in the moment of it is sure painful! I’ll keep you updated as I do. Thanks for taking the time to read my blog, it’s people like you that keep me going!